Welcome to Christmas’ Biology 101. This is how I taught a classmate, 2 years ago, what a nerve impulse was.

By definition, the resting potential is the electrical potential across the plasma membrane of a cell that is not conducting an impulse.
The action potential is the reversal and restoration of the electrical potential across the plasma membrane of a cell, as an electrical impulse passes along it. YAWN. I think I fell asleep three times just reading that, much less register anything wtf.

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i miss everyone. where are you all :( i have lost all contacts due to demise of both phones (don’t bother contacting msian number)! me so lonely. but thank you bb inti hollie jy ddt tocktopher my siao ding dong monkey maine (only person who can make me laugh like siao at 5am wtf) and all my plurk friends especially richkid swei & kittyrat aka mr-soon-to-be-dr cheong hei <3 and omg quote of the day: “like all women, i have my ideal of manhood.” lol sonya you very explicit ahahahah. ok she didn’t know the duality when she posted it, but hahaha makes it even funnier!

i’m so free in december all my plans have vanished. some things cannot be helped lah but still very sad (hm hope your mom gets better <3). ok la got at least 10-15 friends to meet but still! like that only 10 days. what about the remaining 20 days! i promise i won’t be emo or overly bitchy ok :( why unhappy face eyes so small 8( ahh much better. like the shrek puss in boots hehe.

ok sushi just came online and told me to go sleep T.T thanks ah. haih why i so desperate. sushi take good care of yourself ok!! you still have to take me to eat tau nga gai one!!! december’s gonna be a long month. why do i always have sad/lonely christmases? so depressing maybe i should change my nick :( well my last two xmases were on planes, so at least this one i can dunno, sleep at home or sth. i still wanna go japan 8( i miss snow.

and i’m obsessed with molly. it’s like a morbid fascination. she looks so cute but yet so scary. just cannot seem to get enough of it. and tofu also!! tofu molly XD waiting for the tofu molly son now. i want smery to-fuuuu! see why i don’t blog much anymore because i’m awfully boring. yawn.

i can’t wait for friday! new things and avenue q~ let’s go stuff ourselves silly with halloween candy hehs.

43 lessons that MUST be learned in relationships
1. IF A MAN WANTS YOU, NOTHING CAN KEEP HIM AWAY. IF HE DOESN’T WANT YOU, NOTHING CAN MAKE HIM STAY.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man’s character, leave him alone.
4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
5. STOP TRYING TO CHANGE YOURSELF FOR A RELATIONSHIP THAT’S NOT MEANT TO BE.
6. Don’t force an attraction.
7. SLOWER IS BETTER.
8. NEVER LIVE YOUR LIFE FOR A MAN BEFORE YOU FIND WHAT MAKES YOU TRULY HAPPY.
9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can’t “be friends.” A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
10. Don’t settle.
11. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
12. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship–take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?
13. Don’t stay because you think, “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
14. Honorable men take care of their business and aren’t involved in a whole lot of mess.
15. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
16. THERE’S ONLY ONE ‘REASON’ A MAN DUMPS YOU; HE DOESN’T WANT YOU.
17. Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
18. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.
19. Always put yourself and your happiness first.
20. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
21. MAINTAIN BOUNDARIES IN HOW A GUY TREATS YOU. IF SOMETHING BOTHERS YOU, SPEAK UP.
22. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he doesn’t call, he just isn’t that interested.
23. Be honest and upfront.
24. Know when to cut the cord; don’t be strung along.
25. Don’t fall for the “I’m confused role”. Remove yourself from the situation
to let him figure things out (but don’t wait for him, move on).
26. if you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).
27. there’s more than physical abuse, there’s emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them…flee.
28. You cannot change a man’s behaviors. Change comes from within.
29. Don’t let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself — double-standard.
30. Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has
more education or in a better job.
31. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
32. Demand respect and if he can’t give it, he can’t have you!
33. Don’t compete with other woman, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.
34. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he’s lying, let him go.
35. Actions speak louder than words.
36. Never let a man define who you are.
37. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.
38. Never borrow someone else’s man.
39. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
40. JUST BECAUSE HE SAYS HE LOVES YOU, DOESN’T MEAN THAT HE WON’T HURT YOU AND IT DOESN’T MEAN THAT YOU ARE MEANT TO BE WITH HIM.
41. To use painful hard-won wisdom — ‘get it right’ the next time.
42. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the #1 person in your life.
43. Love is a verb…

新三从四德：太太出门要跟从，太太命令要服从，太太错了要盲从；太太化妆要等得，太太生气要忍的，太太花钱要舍得，太太生日要记得。

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从16岁那年开始接触西班牙文，我就一直担心自己的华文水平会和朋友们一样开始足渐降低。毕竟，我的一生当中，看的华文书2只手都数得完。虽然我的母语不是我最喜欢的语言，但能讲华语、能写中文也是件让我感到自豪的事。以前就是因此而开始了自己的中文部落格；不过和其他部落格一样，我也遗弃、荒废了。我虽然也很想用其他语言去试着写日记，但最想要的是能保持一个完全中文的部落格。至今我还是深怕自己会和这丰富的历史、这美丽的语言、这属于自己本根的文化失去那种亲切感。我在加拿大念书的时候，一位巴哈马来的女生就说我 “外面是黄色的，里面却是纯白的”。这可让我大吃一惊！我以自己的种族为荣，永远都不想和那些觉得自己生活在西方国家就是半个白人的人扯上关系。和朋友去唱K,有时候也很尴尬；因为有的字我会念错，我识的歌，大多数都是老歌。就连一次在朋友的部落格上留言，她都说很惊讶看见我写中文 = =”

记得小时候不懂事，和一家ang moh派的亲戚住在一起后，就对自己的种族感到奇怪。我明明是讲英语的，那我一定不是中国人而是英国人！还好我小学上了华校，如果我去了那些著名的英校，后悔就来不及了。即使是今时今日，周遭的朋友都对自己无法讲华语的“功能”感到自豪，对中国文化感到反感，华文考不及格才感到自己赶得上潮流。这正是许多新加坡年轻人的态度！虽然我不是其中之一，但还是有朋友打赌说我以后一定会嫁给老外。毕竟华族男子都无法接受牙尖嘴利的女友（一个好例子就是我国著名博客下雪 - 她的现任男友正是美国人），思想开放的女生。有越来越多新加坡男生选择和中国/越南/马来西亚的女生成亲，而新加坡女子就喜欢搭上白人。住在马国一年了，虽然接触的马来西亚人不算多，但是认识的女子可都是奇女子，个个让我敬佩不已。尤其是槟城的非凡女人，不管是十多岁的青少年还是五十多岁的阿姨，都是如此的善解人意，那么的乐于助人，那么的有爱心，可真令我深深地感动。（当然也不能忘了许许多多的男”绅士“啦！）他们具有深深的”妻子知觉“，不顾一切的为自己深爱的另一半付出，为孩子默默地献出自己。这些正是众多新加坡女生所忌讳的（也应该是我国妇女之所以不生子的原因之一）！我想如果自己是新加坡男生，也不会选择一个生活在自己漂亮的泡泡里边，却对什么都有自己窄小无知的意见和怨言，看不起他人的新加坡女生。我年少无知的时候也正是这个样子。（希望现在没那么严重了，拜托！）越是有那种把自我放在中心的态度的女人，就会越瞧不起人，态度也就越差。男人当然也一样，认为自己有钱就“大细”，侍应生服务员都要听他的，把自己当作皇帝来伺候！也难怪我国的服务业水平比性感女郎的领口来得低。

一直以来，我都把自己当成新加坡华人(Singaporean Chinese)，但正确的说法因该是华族新加坡人(Chinese Singaporean)。真的不知道是要选

1）自己是道道地地的新加坡人，对中国没有什么认识或忠心可言

2）自己是中国华侨，新加坡也只是祖宗移民的新居所。对这里留恋，有归属感真要归功于政府。

我的籍贯是客家，很自然的就是到处过客、四海为家了。所谓的 “wanderlust in my genes” ;) 没家拿天来做棉被咯~ 有时候有灿烂的星空做被子，但有时候却会尿床哦 :P

有时候真的在种族与国际之间难分忠心 - 尤其是在外国求学时。我们的奥运国家队大多是也是中国那里挖过来的人才，不过我认为如果选手自己选择了在这里安居乐业，度过下半辈子，毫称自己是新加坡人，就算不是土生土长的兰花，我们也应该算上我们的一分子。毕竟新加坡本来是马来人的地方；华人可都不是从中国南下、印度人可都不是飘洋过海、赤手空拳来到本岛？新加坡人喜欢埋头苦读，那其他的都让外劳来做吧！好像在大热天下做建筑，像在运动场上夺奖牌等等~ 我们也没什么好埋怨的。那么排华干嘛？？新加坡也不是唯一一个用中国选手的国家 - 请问现在哪里找不到华人？？只要新加坡人继续有读书比运动来得好的态度，那期待有土生土长的奥运金牌得主就真的是望石成金、守株待兔了。

好了，就此搁笔了。我还蛮喜欢用中文写的！可能会重开秘密中文部落格~ 好期待哦 :)

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omg my chinese sucks. i can’t believe i didn’t even bother to proofread it properly. argh.